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♥ 11:09 AM

went to cell-bonding anyway.
at first i'm not gonna to stayover night but something just happened after dinner and i decided to stayover.

sixuan cried ytd cause i'm emo until cannot emo le.
she first time saw me so emo and it's oso the 1st time i saw myself in such state.
i had been stoning in the canteen for 3h!
unbelievable.
i cried too after i saw sixuan cry. (i found out when sixuan cry i will cry oso. hahas.)
i wasn't able to adapt to the new surroundings that much.
i dun dare to talk to people, and ya, i'm always sitting there stoning during cell discussion.
then yesterday i was so sian that i have nothing to say and nothing to do except for eating.
so i stoned there for 3h.
and when sixuan ask me questions on why i dun wanna stayover,
i keep saying i dun noe and if i stay i'll be very sian. i oso say i just dun dare to talk to people.
she tried to advice me that i can't stay like this forever. and she say i should try to talk to ppl if not she oso can't help me.
i was listening to her and was taking in her words but i just dun reply her.
i continued to be in silence and i think she can't take it anymore and asked me not to be like this(emo).then she cried.then i cried.

okay. blablablah.
joanne came to ask what happened then she tried to ya, advice me oso.
and i just keep crying.
not for other reasons but cause i was touched.
at first i keep thinking that sixuan is so carefree and easy going that she kinda not care about me.
so through yesterday, i found out that she knew me more than anyone else.(:
{sixuan, if you're reading this post dun get so touched and cry again horhh. hahas. this is a compliment. to myself. i make you feel touched. okay, i noe you too. =P LOL.}

joanne then asked me to think over whether i shld try to continue to be in this cell or maybe they would place me back to sixuan's cell.
my answer to her after that is to try.
cos what joanne and sixuan said are correct.
i can't stay quiet forever and especially when i step out to the society i can't just sit there and wait for other people to come talk to me 1st.
so i wan to try out lorhh. trying to talk to people 1st. i am trying HARD.
it's difficult okay?
for such a shy person like me. hahas. :D

then blablablah.
after that we okay le and continued to talk and talk and talk.
cos we are sharing room together with all the girls, we decided to talk outside the room cos more convenient to say whatever we want that we only want each other to noe.
we talked about, ererhem(not HER for some ppl's info).
what normal girls would talk about. LOL.
okay then we talk talk talk and walk up and down the corridor for many many times.
one guy in my cell say we are petrolling. LOL.
we said we are not and continued our conversation.

this morning sixuan told me that she heard that the guys next door are discussing about the girls.
then she heard that one guy say that ytd night he saw two girls petrolling, walking up and down the corridor which he's referring to us la. then we laugh. hahas.

had 1st service this morning and woke up at 7.30am+ which i slept at 4.30am++
i was so tired that almost fall asleep during the sermon which i did for a few mins. :DD

then i was back home typing this post now. LOL.
okay, there's nothing much to say about now. i'm SO tired.

OH! PLS LEAVE A TAG BEFORE YOU LEAVE! :DDD